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  life=pain

  by paul from cleveland in

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  i've started drinking again.

  i stopped for a month but i gave in again.

  sorry i'm writing it here but who else am i going to tell?

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  paul from cleveland

  I've started drinking again. Just now. I stopped for a month but I gave in again. Sorry I'm writing it here but who else am I going to tell? God? I need a way to stop painful thoughts without drugs and alcohol.
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  With Heavy Heart

  by PSacramento in

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  sometimes we find a place and it feels like home, it is accepting and understanding.. then, sometimes, that place becomes cold and inhospitible.. when i first joined here i felt i have found a good place.. people like narkissos, leolaia and others impressed me with their knowledge of scripture and motivated me to learn more for myself.. others touched me with the stories of their pan and hurt, pain and hurt that i was feeling also.. i don't think i ever offended anyone with my views on christianity and if i have i sincerly apologise for that was not my intent.. but things change and sometimes home isn't home anymore.... this site had been invalable to me for my understanding what is wrong with the jw's relgion and the wt, it has strengthened my faith and belief.. here i found people of religon, faith and love.. here i found agnostics and athiest that challenged my views and made me question, they made me a believe via reason and not "blind faith".. for that, i thank all of you, especially the "jeff's" ( ak and alltime), i also say a special thanks to leavingthewt, many of his posts made me feel welcomed and made me think and be a better person.. chalam, bts, dd and so many others, i thank you from my heart for your kind words over these many months.. people like mary and sylvia and so many others filled my heart with love with their stories.. all the best to you my dear brothers and sisters.. .

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  paul from cleveland

  I hope you don't go. I like reading your posts.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  Thanks jaguarbass, I'll look into that.
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  So.....do you or don't you want them to come after you?

  by Quillsky in

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  i've noticed an interesting dichotomy in these discussions.

  as a starting point, i understand that we are all different --- there is no "we" here except that we have all been, or been involved with, jw's.

  but this is interesting..... some people complain about being "hounded" by elders and shepherding calls and previous "friends" and so on.

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  paul from cleveland

  I would have liked it if someone came to talk to me. I try to talk to them, when I see them in public, but they just won't talk back. When they see me they turn and walk away without saying a word. I've tried to call some "friends" but they'll hang up as soon as they hear my voice. Even my own brother. In a way, it makes me feel very powerful. They must think that hearing a few words out of my mouth will shatter their faith.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  Nancy, I guess that was before my time. Sounds cruel.
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  No, I live in the Tremont neighborhood of Cleveland. Just a mile from downtown.

  

  Where they filmed the movie "The Deer Hunter"
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  Hi Noni, that's the train bridge that extends from the cold storage building in Tremont across the river to the industrial flats. I'd like that one or the W. 3rd street bridge because I can walk there and get rid of my car. I know those jobs are hard to get.

  
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  I'm dying here in Cleveland

  by paul from cleveland in

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  this economy is killing me.

  many sleepless nights..

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  paul from cleveland

  I'm not proud, I'll do anything.

  I'd like to get a job as a drawbridge operator. The operator works out of that little room on top of the bridge. The pay is good and this one is close to where I live. If I can get the night shift, I can look for regular work during the day.

  
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  I think I've reached that point in life where I hate my job and will always hate my job

  by Elsewhere in

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  remember when you were a kid and you saw the funny bits in shows about how someone hates their job and just goes to work to pay the bills.

  i think i've reached that point in my life.. i hate my job.. i used to love the work i do... but the way a corporation crushes your soul and leaves you as an empty husk of your former self has finally taken its toll on me.. i used to look forward to the challenges of work... now i wake up, go to work, do what i have to do to get through the day and then go home.. .

  it's totally absurd but i find myself literally fantasizing about winning the lottery so i can get my soul back..

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  paul from cleveland

  Just be happy you have a job. The unemployment rate in the US is over 10%. Being unemployed is much more unpleasant.
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  Are Any Of You Afraid of Dying At Armageddon?

  by minimus in

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  i'm not but i know some jws that have drifted but when things like 9/11 catastrophes occur, they're right back at the kingdom hall.. do you ever worry that the great tribulation might occur and you will die?.

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  paul from cleveland

  I used to be... now I'm more worried about the personal Armageddon I'm going to have if I can't find work soon. I'm picking out the bridge I'm going to live under now.